I squandered days,
months,
years.
I squandered youth,
living in my moment of reckless abandon.
I did not treasure it
nor cherish it,
I lived it ,
not questioning the consequence,
not questioning forever.
If I laid down my blunders
like a feast on a table,
would you cut them one by one
with a scalpel and examine their severity?
Would you ravage them like a vulture
does roadkill .
Would you judge ?
or would you celebrate,
lines blurred ,
coloring outside the lines,
the beauty of risk,
lessons learned,
wisdom extracted ,
a story of survival,
a story of life.
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ReplyDeleteHAHA just had to do it - I've never been first here before, usually there are 50 comments by now :)
ReplyDeleteAnywho, I love this poem. Speaks to lost years. However, I believe that it's never ever too late to begin anew :)
No regrets and not lost years but lessons learned the hard way..and not realizing that life flies. Also in youth there is a lack of fear that later we acquire by learning those hard lessons. :)
DeleteSo so true indeed my friend.
Delete:) smiles
Deletei think even our failings help form us into who we are, so i try not to dissect them or let them steal the moment...we do waste time though and should think on that...making the most of all we are given...
ReplyDeleteTrue..and I do believe all the mistakes made me who I am...and I have no regrets .
DeleteWhat I was trying to express is that when we are young we don't quite realize how precious life is. :)
DeleteCan learn from each task we take up or don't take up, sometimes the hard way indeed.
ReplyDeleteI would celebrate the risk, lessons learned and story of survival ~
ReplyDeleteBeautiful share Ayala ~ Wishing you a happy day :-)
Thank you, Grace. :)
DeleteI do celebrate...it got me here.
Ayala, I am sure all your experiences brought you to the place where you are today, thus your youth was not squandered but was fertile ground for learning. Just think, if you had done things differently, you might not be where you are; and I doubt you would want that. Smiles!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mary. I agree with you..and I do feel like it made me who I am...I have no regrets......
DeleteEverything I did and everything I went through was a lesson and sometimes we sacrifice a lot without knowing the cost...
"the beauty of risk" resonates...this is youth...Thoughtful, great write!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jackie :)
Deletethe beauty of risk,
ReplyDeletelessons learned,
wisdom extracted ,
a story of survival,
a story of life....so very true...there is beauty in risk...and we learn our lessons sometimes the hard way but makes it all the more valuable..
So true..so much more valuable :)
DeleteI love this piece! The meaning resonates with me. So much was lost on my youth but so much wisdom gained. I have tried so hard to instill this to my children. Nicely done!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Lincoln. Our wisdom we can't instill as much as we want to because they want to learn on our own the way we did :)
DeleteLove it...a valuable journey well-shared. Love how you look at the 'life mistakes' as lessons learned.
ReplyDeleteThanks, Jen. I am fortunate that I did learn from them. :)
DeleteWell, you certainly poured your heart out! :-) Many thanks. I quite enjoyed that.
ReplyDeleteGreetings from London.
Thank you kindly. :)
DeleteThose lessons are vital. As I've often said: wise people begin as idiots.
ReplyDeleteGreat write.
I like that... :) Thank you, Tony.
DeleteLove this, it is authentic and well constructed. Great write
ReplyDeleteThank you, James. :) I appreciate it.
DeleteThe beauty of risk, well that is about where my head is at right now! Thank you for sharing such intense words.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Vanessa :)
Deletebeautiful Ayala...chag sameach!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Laura and the same to you and yours!
DeleteCelebrate, always. Celebrate. We live, we learn, we carry on. And that is always something to celebrate.
ReplyDeleteAmen!
DeleteBeautiful write--I felt this one--
ReplyDeleteThank you, Audrey :)
DeleteI like the straight forwardness of this - the confession, the questioning and then the final lines of acceptance and self fulfillment - really like this! K
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kathleen. :)
DeleteI read somewhere "Don't judge me by my past. I don't live there anymore."
ReplyDeleteExamination is good but live now, cherish now.
Well written.
Thank you, Beth and it's true we don't live there anymore. :)
DeleteWelcome to "Former Squanderers Anonymous" (SQA--sounds important. Well it IS!
ReplyDeleteI believe it is helpful for us who have been sober a long time to let the new Peeps know that NOBODY'S Perfect here. That way they will not despair when they start remembering.
Excellent piece of writing. I'm CELEBRATING!!!
Thank you, my friend and celebrate-always! :)
DeleteThey say youth is wasted on the young. Adele says You know how the time flies Only yesterday was the time of our lives We were born and raised in a summer haze Bound by the surprise of our glory days
ReplyDeleteYes, it is :)
DeleteWhat a thought provoking poem. Excused youthful blunders? Always. I suppose the true tragedy is if we don't gain wisdom with age. And I know a few who haven't.
ReplyDeleteIf I laid down my blunders
like a feast on a table,
Great, great image!
A feast..a celebration..hard times and good times...I know a few too that have not learned and yes that is the true tragedy. :)
DeleteOur pasts make us who are now, Ayala. You seem quite lovely to me. Thanks for sharing yourself here.
ReplyDeletePamela
Thank you, Pamela. :)
DeleteWe've all got to make mistakes sometimes, as they often lea us to our successes.
ReplyDeleteYes! :)
DeleteI love the up-front honesty of this. We all make mistakes, especially when we're young, but we don't all learn from them. The story of our lives doesn't consist in only our mistakes though; we've all made good choices that we have no cause at all to regret.
ReplyDeleteYes, many good choices and many good deeds :)
Deletei would celebrate them, of course! :) here's to a life of no regrets, yes?
ReplyDeleteYes, cheers!
Delete... and here's to wisdom when one knows better
ReplyDeleteCheers, Pat :)
DeleteAyala...I suppose we all experience this. I do, for sure. And it's just part of our life journey I guess, teaching us chesed for ourselves as well as others.
ReplyDeleteYes...I would hope so. :)
DeleteThis made me stop and think about my own youth. I think the beauty of youth is that we do squander our time...we revel in the notion that life is limitless. You captured that essence brilliantly, ayala.
ReplyDeleteYes, we do believe that it's limitless :) thank you.
DeleteHi Ayala, I'm really slow getting around this week. I really like this one. And for the record I would give you a standing ovation for:
ReplyDelete"coloring outside the lines,
the beauty of risk,
lessons learned,
wisdom extracted" most definitely!
Thank you :) I appreciate it. :)
Deleteif I laid down my blunders
ReplyDeletelike a feast on a table,
liked that especially. it's not for anyone to judge what is or isn't a blunder...one can choose to empathise...or not...stop at the table or move on if you like...but judging is difficult...we all have tables groaning under the weight of our own I think :)
I enjoyed the wisdom in your verse
Yes, it's not for anyone to judge, thank you. Glad you liked it. :)
DeleteLove this piece, Ayala. Such wisdom and insight in your words. Blunders are a part of learning and as we get older, I feel we do not honor our mistakes enough.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Rudri. Yes, we need to celebrate them and honor them. The mistakes have taught us valuable lessons.
Deletelaugh at our mistakes but learn from them,joke over ur trouble but gather strength from them,have fun with difficulties but overcome them..Ayala well thought& written on Youth:) GOD<3U
ReplyDeleteI feel blessed for having survived the struggles and from learning from my mistakes. Thank you, Adhi.
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ReplyDeleteInteresting poem. In the journey of life time is not wasted as it helps form us with new knowledge whatever that may be. Life is a learning experience.
ReplyDeleteThank you. :)
Deleteahhh our life stories... hard to tell and yet you are SO RIGHT!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Dulce. :)
DeleteTerrific poem. Life's blunders, which we all make, are never wasted. They are indeed lessons learned and a source of wisdom.
ReplyDeleteTrue :)
DeleteYou ask the ultimate questions when one has begun to live with intention and awareness.
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Oh Ayala, that's an important question! How beautifully you've posed it.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mary. :)
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