I fell into life's embrace,
decay crawling on my skin,
naked to be seen.
a place? a destination?
my soul scarred,
healed by love.
My vessel fragile,
yet my spirit like a great oak tree.
How do I matter?
What is this journey
The past and the present,
side by side,
tied like a ship with a lifeboat.
Where I have been,
what I have done,
is written on my soul.
What is life, if not
for the love that I breathe,
for the love I have nurtured
for my boys.
Every breath they took,
gave me the will to be better,
Love is the greatest gift,
it blooms in my heart,
it flows through my veins,
it saturates my being.
Five years ago today I began posting on my blog, a sun kissed life. It was a difficult time, I had lost both my parents and I felt wounded, tired, and vulnerable. A desire was sparked to write again and to stand with an open heart and share it. The desire was mixed with fear of leaving myself naked to be seen. My pain expressed for strangers to see, but I took a leap. At first the posts remained empty of comments, and it was okay because after all I was writing to find happiness within. As time went by my blog blossomed, other bloggers that I respected came by to read which made me happy and grateful. I was welcomed to a wonderful community of bloggers,poets,authors and journalists. We bleed on our pages and we share our souls. My blog brought me back to the writing I had left behind. It has made me examine ordinary and extraordinary moments of my life. To all my friends I want to say thank you for embracing me with love and acceptance. I am blessed to have you all in my life!
happy blog anniversary ayala - and thanks for sharing your journey with us... have to do some math about how long i'm already blogging - i'm just messy when it comes to figures...oyReplyDelete
It's always good to see you here, Claudia :)Delete
I am glad you chose to take the journey ayala, and it has been a privelege to watch you grow, pretty much since the beginning. Happy anniversary - and I wish you many more years of wrestling those questions. Ha.ReplyDelete
Thank you my friend. It's been a good journey to share.Delete
Happy Blogoversary, Ayala! I am so glad we've intersected and your poems resonate with me. Cheers to many more years. xoReplyDelete
Thank you, Rudri. Your friendship is a blessing. xoxDelete
Congrats on your achievement. So sorry to hear about your folks passing. And its great to know that starting your blog uplifted you in more ways than one. Best wishes to you today and always!ReplyDelete
Thank you kindly !Delete
The blog world can do so much. Congrats on 5 years!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Pat. It's been great !Delete
Happy Blog Anniversary!ReplyDelete
Thank you Kelli !Delete
This is a beautiful post Ayala. Congratulations. I'm so glad you've been around, and that blogging, writing has brought you some healing and joy.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Myrna. XoxDelete
Happy blogoversary, Ayala!ReplyDelete
"Where I have been,
what I have done,
is written on my soul. " ---- so very true, and your blog is a testament!
Continue on...for another five years! Smiles.
Thank you, Mary. Friends like you have made this space a sacred place . XoxDelete
Happy anniversary Ayala. I'm glad I've got to virtually know you through this lovely blog. xxReplyDelete
Thank you, Mary. Hugs.Delete
I started writing poetry almost two years ago. A step I do not regret. I am glad I came across your blog and poetry. Happy blog anniversary!ReplyDelete
Thank you Gabriella. I am happy for you and I hope you continue to write.Delete
Happy 5 years...new here ☺
Thank you! Welcome!Delete
The past and the present,ReplyDelete
side by side,
tied like a ship with a lifeboat.
Happy blogoversary, Ayala. Wishing you calm waters, and many new shores and great journeys to navigate.
Thank you so much dear ! I appreciate your kind wishes :)Delete
Quite an achievement you describe...something I aspire to but it requires more time. So glad it filled an empty place for you in your life when you most needed it.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Kathy!Delete
I'm so glad you took the leap--blogging is a Good Thing.ReplyDelete
Thank you !Delete
SOAKING tears of loveReplyDelete
soar in WAVES of
for light in life
a ship ABOARD
a new way STEAMS
away with tears
behold a DREAM..:)
Connections made with love create strong bonds . A beautiful celebration of your own personal strength and driving will to move forward.ReplyDelete
Thank you so much !Delete
What a wonderful coincidence, Ayala - your fifth anniversary, dVerse's fourth. I'm glad we found each other and that we all found writing - such a balm on a wounded soul, such a life saver and life giver!ReplyDelete
Thank you Marina! I am so grateful for meeting you and all my other friends here!Delete
Wishing you a very happy fifth anniversary..! The online blogging world is a great place to be in specially when we have such like minded individuals to hang out with and share our joy & sorrow. Glad to know that you have come a long way since.. and wishing you peace & happiness. Amen.ReplyDelete
Thank you kindly ! Best wishes!Delete
Happy 5th anniversary and thanks for sharing your heart and journey with us ~ Cheers !ReplyDelete
Thank you, Grace. You have been a good friend.Delete
I am glad of you, in the blogosphere. Happy Anniversary!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Rosemary!Delete
Congratulations Ayala. I'm so glad you made this decision five years ago. So glad to have met you and enjoy your wonderful writing.ReplyDelete
I thank you Myrna. So grateful we have met and shared our hearts here.Delete
Every time I see the dog picture - I smileReplyDelete
Congrats on writing - and healing, and growing.
Thank you so much :)Delete
Congrats, Ayala. We sure are glad you chose to be a part of our lives and to share the richness of yourself and your family. (And don't forget Daisy--glad she still hangs around on your header). xoReplyDelete
Daisy is there, the same way she lives in my heart. Thank you, Victoria. XoDelete
Happy 5th Anniversary on your blog, Ayala...and for sharing with dVerse on their 4th!! God bless you.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Lynn. Best wishes.Delete
Even when decay is crawling on our skin and our souls are scarred, we can still be healed by love.....you have it exactly right!! Happy Blog Anniversary!ReplyDelete
Yes! Thank you!Delete
Happy blogversary Ayala! It is amazing how we move through grief and find life again, whole and happy--bless you!!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Audrey. XoDelete
A great five years, Ayala. I've always enjoyed your reflections and ruminations! Here's hoping for many more...ReplyDelete
Thank you Steve!Delete
it has been such a blessing to be your blogger/fb friend Ayala! your moments of love, happiness, pride and heartbreak continue to reach me with great depth and sincerity. thank you for sharing these moments and trusting me with your heart! Happy Five Years and many many more!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Hope. I cherish our friendship.Delete
What you're saying is completely true. I know that everybody must say the same thing, but I just think that you put it in a way that everyone can understand. I'm sure you'll reach so many people with what you've got to say.ReplyDelete
Congrats on five years. It is wonderful our paths crossed. My journey has been much like yours, blogging brought new life to my writing, which had faltered for lack of nourishment. I especially love your lines "shattered pieces healed by love." Lovely.ReplyDelete