Kernels of wisdom
to chew or spit.
We die a little every day
I tell you.
The migraine invades the night
and robs me of my sleep.
New York is waiting,
a carriage ride in Central park,
a sandwich at the deli,
cheesecake at the Plaza.
I choose not to linger in thoughts
of tomorrow,
getting old,
dying.
I want to soak in today
Tomorrow is not promised,
fragments of us,
half conversations.
Words withheld,
dreams I must contain
while my soul longs
for the moment.
Abandon my words,
abandon my wishes.
I turn the light on within,
the moths of my soul linger feasting.
Unclutter my mind,
drink from my well,
captivated by the light
and this dance called life.
Squeeze the nectar,
taste,
savor
tomorrow may never come.
I celebrated my birthday Sunday and I wrote this one night at 4 A.M while a migraine kept me company. Today is also my three year blog anniversary.
I celebrated my birthday Sunday and I wrote this one night at 4 A.M while a migraine kept me company. Today is also my three year blog anniversary.
Glad you got something lovely out of a migraine! Happy 3 years!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Dana :)
Deleteah i want to go to new york again...what a romantic and creative place...great wisdom in your opening lines too...chew or spit, its up to you...glad 3 years ago you took up the pen and made this...its been a fun journey to share with you...smiles.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Brian. Salvation it is. :)
DeleteSqueeze the nectar...i like...living in the now..that's a good recipe for life... and nyc is a fascinating city...oh i fell in love...hope to make it back one day..
ReplyDeleteLove N.Y.C too. I wanted to go on my birthday but it didn't work out. One day soon...I hope.
DeleteHappy special day & blogoversary ~ Enjoy every moment for who knows what tomorrow will bring ~
ReplyDeleteI have enjoyed your journey dear and thank you for your lovely visits to my blogs over the years ~ We are lucky to have support in our communities ~ Have a good day ~
Thank you, Grace. I am so happy we met here. I appreciate all your kind words.
DeleteHappy Birthday, ayala! And Happy Blog-o-versary! :)
ReplyDeleteSorry you had to suffer from a migraine. My daughter gets them and they can be so debilitating...but what you did while in pain? This is magnificent! So true - tomorrow is just a promise not a guarantee.
Thank you my dear friend. I appreciate your kindness.
DeleteHappy Birthday and Happy Blogoversary!
ReplyDeleteI adore the first four lines of this. Wow.
Thank you, MZ. :)
DeleteCongratulations and happy belated Birthday. I loved this: I turn the light on within,
ReplyDeletethe moths of my soul linger feasting.
Unclutter my mind,
drink from my well,
captivated by the light
and this dance called life.
Thank you, Anna. :)
DeleteAnother great write, and happy double celebration.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Tony. :)
Delete...oh my... hey don't ever quit as the world will cry if we lose an inspiring person like you Ayala... smiles... hey, HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY (belated) BIRTHDAY!!!! **fireworks**
ReplyDelete...& CONGRATZ!!! for 3 talented years you devoted showering inspirations... **fireworks** ....
...ye know we cannot tell what fate has stored for us tomorrow... we can only live & enjoy the moment today... we cannot control what is not yet coming... we can only trust that somehow tomorrow will treat us nicely... smiles... we have. still so many to fill in life so don't settle yet my friend... GOD Bless... smiles...
Dear Kelvin,
DeleteThank you :) sweet of you.
Yes, we have to live each day...live it too my friend. Savor every moment :)
Congrats Ayala--and happy birthday--I loved this --however did you write with a migraine??
ReplyDeleteThank you..and yes I wrote :)
Deleteso glad you found hope and community here...
ReplyDeleteThank you, Leslie. :)I'm glad I found you.
DeleteSo true that we die a little each day. Most of all we can't think about this, but have to keep on enjoying the life we have. You are right, it is best not to linger in thoughts of getting old, of tomorrows. This will happen soon enough. I have never had a migraine, but I can imagine how horrible they must make a person feel. And....happy birthdsy.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mary. The migraines are horrible...and you are right that will happen soon enough.
DeleteI so know this place you write from. I suffer migraines regularly and they can send your mind to dark places.
ReplyDeleteHappy birthday and anniversary! Xo
I am sorry...and thank you, Kelly.xo
Deletehappy birthday, happy anniversary, and hopefully happy goodbye to the migraine. and I must say, I love your dog's smile. ~ M
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. My dog passed away but she remains on my blog. I miss her so much.
Deleteso beautiful and inspiring, Ayala...*many smiles and best wishes of love and light to you*
ReplyDeleteThank you so much. Best wishes.
DeleteHappy birthday and happy blog anniversary it's a great achievement. I enjoyed your poem and yes live today, tomorrow is too far away... nice poem Ayala. :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Di. :)
Deletehappy birthday, blogoversary, our dear Ayala
ReplyDeleteALOHA from Honolulu
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Thank you, Cloudia. :)
DeleteHappy Belated Birthday! I know what migraines feel like you are lucky you were able to write such a lovely poem with all that banging in your head. Tomorrow is not promised to any one..thanks for the reminder.
ReplyDeleteThank you so much.
DeleteNY is grand and yeah never know about tomorrow, migraines are hell too.
ReplyDeleteYes they .... :)
DeleteWow---so many great lines here: That first one especially--chew or spit indeed. And "words withheld/dreams I must contain" can so identify. Another favorite "moths of my soul linger feasting" Great piece--love NYC--and happy birthday! Hope the migraine is long gone.
ReplyDeleteThank yo.u so much. I appreciate it
Deletecongratulations on the three years. and happy belated:)
ReplyDeleteyou have a resilient and triumphant quality to your work.
Thank you, Ed.
DeleteSo happy we met here and I always love your work.
Belated birthday wishes - and congratulations on your 3 year anniversary too.
ReplyDeleteFor me the best line in this is I want to soak in today. That's an ambition that is definitely worth achieving; taking each day as it comes and making the most of it.
Thank you kindly.
DeleteIf I didn't wish you a happy b-day, I certainly do now :) eBirthdays have a way of tapping us on the shoulder reminding us of our mortality. We need to enjoy the NOW as your poetry so strongly tells us...and so beautifully...Another signature, Ayala poem. Thank you for sharing :)) xox~jackie~
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jackie. You are always so thoughtful. xo
DeleteUnbelievable that I did not comment here...but...
ReplyDeleteThese words of yours, Ayala speak softly to me--anyone--who has ever sat is solitude, emptied the brain, and then wrote whever sifted through the haze of a 4 AM headache.
Maybe even WITHOUT the headache (I don't get them, unless I fall, and concrete hits my head--or is that other way 'round?)
Again, you strike the bells of thought, meditation, whatever, and they chime exqisitely.
PEACE and LIGHT!
I am glad you don't get them. :) Love all your comments and support. Peace and love to you.
Deletethanks for sharing your special time... sorry about the head ache... and congrats on 3 years of blogging
ReplyDeleteAyala, first of all, congrats on the blog anniversary. I am so sorry about the migraine. I used to suffer from them while living in Florida myself. Maybe it is the climate.
ReplyDeleteI love the poem and its visuals, I will join you for the carriage ride and cheesecake.
Pamela
Thank you, Pamela. Sounds good :)
DeleteCongratulations, Ayala. So glad you decided to come online three years ago.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Steve. So glad we met :)
DeleteIt is a sun kissed life today (this time of year around here, they're all sun kissed). Thanks for a great poem. May all your days be sunny.
ReplyDeleteI wish you the same :) Thank you.
DeleteThank you and I am sorry.
ReplyDeleteThis is lovely, and congratulations on your blogoversary! I started my blog when my father became gravely ill. There is something about writing that is life-saving, not to mention this wonderful community.
ReplyDeleteSo sorry about the migraines...but they gave you some profound thoughts to share with us. And Happy Anniversary!
ReplyDeleteCongratulations on your three year anniversary. I'm sorry you had to be up at all hours of the night, darned migraines. You were right though, live each day for all it's worth. Thanks
ReplyDeleteCongrats, Ayala! I am so happy our paths intersected. Hope to read many more words from you. (Sorry the congratulations are belated - I am now catching up on my reading). xoxo
ReplyDeleteHappy belated birthday and anniversary! I was touched and heartened to read your words, and to know that you were able to find a place of comfort and support during a very difficult time in your life. I have been in that place of wondering about quitting too, and I'm glad you were able to ride past those self doubts. I love the beauty, serenity and wisdom of your posts and hope that you keep writing.
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