On Mother's Day,
flowers will be given,
hallmark cards will be read,
children will make breakfast for moms
I will think of you,
flowers will be given,
hallmark cards will be read,
children will make breakfast for moms
I will think of you,
under the sand ,
under the stone we erected,
announcing to the world that
you were a great wife,
A throphy for all your sleepless nights,
I placed a heart
in your grave
before they covered you.
I cried, my heart broken.
Life is fleeting you said,
surround yourself with beauty you said.
You gave love with warm kisses,
You were flawed,
Fragile but powerful.
I believed in miracles,
I believed that you would go on,
that you would overcome the heartbreak,
of losing the love of your life.
In the rehab room,
you saw him even though he was gone,
you saw him smile.
You no longer cared about life,
I tried to awaken your spirit but
your eyes were vacant
with only endless sadness
that invaded your being.
He was your other half,
he was your life.
I saw you wither,
I saw you disappear in front of me.
I fed you orange pudding,
the way you fed me when I was a child.
You followed me with your eyes,
but you no longer smiled,
the stars had disappeared from your eyes.
You melted into the bed,
and my words could not move you nor lift
I didn't want to let you go,
I didn't want to say goodbye.
When you took your last breath,
my heart stopped,
my pain raw and unbearable.
I hold you in my heart,
I wear the wedding ring my father gave you,
I hold you in my dreams,
and every day I think of you,
I miss you so.
This is dedicated to my mom. She lost her will to live when my father died. They were together for almost sixty years. I miss them both every day. My father passed away on Mother's Day, so Mother's Day will never be the same for me. I have gratitude in my heart that I had good parents and I have gratitude in my heart that my children celebrate me on this day. Please meet us here http://dversepoets.com/ where we share our thoughts and our hearts.
heart felt ayala....the heart shaped stone in her grave...the symbolism...seeing her vacant and at a loss of life...its heartbreaking...reminds me of my Mother in law....hugs...ReplyDelete
It was heartbreaking...thank you, Brian. I am so sorry about your MIL and the loss you and T experienced. Hugs back.Delete
Has to be rough when all one knows is gone, but gratitude for things to, even it isn't always easyReplyDelete
A beautiful tribute Ayala ~ So sad to know that she lost her will to live in the end ~ Thanks for sharing and have a lovely day ~ReplyDelete
Thank you, Grace. I felt desperate those days....sad.Delete
Ayala, you've made your mother smile :)ReplyDelete
Thank you, Mark. You are so sweet.Delete
A truly heartfelt tribute. lovely.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Tony.Delete
a beautiful tribute ayala....reminded me of my grandfather...he didn't want to live any more when my grandma had died...and followed her soon..ReplyDelete
That happened with my grandparents as well...when they love so much..they feel incomplete without the one they love. Thank you, Claudia.Delete
Thank you for sharing this heartful poem. I am sorry for you loss,for her loss, for loss that so often accompanies death. Love is so potent here. Beautiful.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Jane. I appreciate it.Delete
This touched me in a profound way. I lost my brother in a drowning accident when he was 16 and I was 20. My father lost the will to live and died three months later--your piece brought me right back thereReplyDelete
Audrey, I am so sorry. Heartbreaking, I am speechless. Hugs.Delete
I truly felt the pain of your heart here. Such unrepairable breakage in the loss of a parent.ReplyDelete
So hard....thank you.Delete
Hard to type while crying, but i'm doing my best. This was a beautiful tribute to your Mom, ayala. This is the second Mother's Day I will be without my own Mom and the missing is so hard...ReplyDelete
I am so sorry for your loss. So much heartache for you, my thoughts are with you. Hugs.Delete
I just lost my Mother 2 weeks ago and this, this first Mother's Day feels almost impossibleReplyDelete
your words sting yet soothe
thank you and may the God of peace grant peace to us both!
Sorry for your loss. The first Mother's Day so difficult. Your loss so new and the pain so fresh and raw. Sorry.Delete
Ayala, this is such a heartfelt write. I have read the poems you have read about both your mother and your father. Your poem about your mother inspires me to write a poem about my (deceased) mother on Mother's Day. Sad that she lost her will to live after your dad died. It is good that you remember some of her lessons such as 'surround yourself with beauty' and 'life is fleeting.' I am so aware of the importance of both. I always look forward to your blog, Ayala. You write 'real,' and I appreciate that!ReplyDelete
Mary, I am happy that my poem inspired you to write a poem for your mom. I am sure she will be smiling in heaven. I appreciate your kind words, thank you Mary.Delete
really deep piece. continue keepin' tha spirit of ur mama alive....ain't no one in this world more precious than one's mama. salute 2 ur entire family.ReplyDelete
Thank you kindly. Moms are so great..they love and nurture and they don't ask for anything in return.Delete
Another lovely tribute touching on so many levels. Wishing you peace.ReplyDelete
Thank you kindly and peace to you.Delete
A lovely tribute to both of your parents. Hope you have a nice Mothers Day!ReplyDelete
Thank you so much. I appreciate it.Delete
So sad, poignant, and so beautiful :)) Hugs. xoxoxoReplyDelete
Thank you, J. xoxoDelete
So sad, and so hard. My wife's mother has struggled in this way since her husband passed away; they were together their entire lives. She is in her last days now, and has said many times she is ready to go.ReplyDelete
A beautiful tribute, Ayala.
I am so sorry, Charles. Please tell your wife that I pray she has strength through these dark days. So sad.Delete
Oh, Ayala... this brought tears to my eyes... so beautiful, heartfelt. I hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day anyway.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Laurie. I appreciate this and I hope your Mother's Day is perfect.Delete
I'm sorry for your loss, and I wish you pleasant memories. You have crossed a bridge I have yet to cross.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Todd. Embrace what you have right now.....Delete
This is so touching. The orange putting, eyes, melting into the bed, and the ring. It gave me chills.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Colleen.Delete
Oh my goodness Ayala... this is so beautiful. The love and dedication... the emotions you must have been feeling is simply so great.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Dana. I write from my heart.Delete
A wonderful tribute to the spirit of your mom. Many moms have it hard, and your poem reminds me of the sadness and joys of my own mother. Thanks youReplyDelete
Thank you, Charles. Moms give us our foundation, they give us life.Delete
Oh my, this made me cry. Your heartbreak is palpable, and what a hard day this must be for you. I will be sending an extra hug to help you through it.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Kelly for your kindness and your heart.Delete
Our hearts may ache with loss, but we must embrace the memories. Let all that was good envelope you, and hold tight to the joy of knowing that your parents are united once again.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Ginny. When my mom passed the only thing that consoled me somewhat was that now they were united again.Delete
*hugs* I had my mother for four years and though many say that I don't know her, I know her well. On Mother's Day, I wish that our time had extended further. Blessings.ReplyDelete
Aww Beth, I am so sorry. Such a heartbreak for you. I'm sure she is watching you in spirit. Hugs.Delete
So well written and it gave me a big lump and tears in my eyes.ReplyDelete
Thank you kindly.Delete
This is beautiful. Such a lovely tribute.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Jenny .Delete
your word pictures here are lovely and sad, but i hear your gratitude, too...ReplyDelete
Thank you, Leslie .Delete
How heartbreaking. Your pain shows through in every line - but even more so, the love you have for your Mother.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Stephen. I appreciate it.Delete
Lots of comments, and deservedly so. When you express such personal thoughts from heart's depth, you give us life, light, and truth. Lots of love in this Ayala.ReplyDelete
I felt my heart also rise in temperature while reading this and remembering.....
Steve, thank you for your beautiful heart. You always bring me sunshine with your kindness.Delete
A moving tribute, Ayala, and a great rendering of a powerful human dynamic.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Steve.Delete
such a beautiful tribute ... a great write.ReplyDelete
Thank you, my friend.Delete
Ayala.. from reading your very personal innermost thoughts, its obvious your parents love was bigger that life itself! This was a beautiful tribute. Your words moved me (hands on my heart).ReplyDelete
Your comment made me smile and your kind words lifted me. Tomorrow is five years since my dad passed away and it's going to be a hard day.Delete
This made me cry at work. My gosh, it's so touching and painfully beautiful.ReplyDelete
Thank you so much. I am touched by your comment.Delete
In tears, Ayala. Thinking of you, my friend. xoxoReplyDelete
Thank you, Rudri. xoxoDelete
I am in tears writing this, Ayala. Just crying. You captured so poignantly and so vividly the love on so many levels - the love your parents had for one another and the love that you have for them. Thank you for opening your very full heart to us.ReplyDelete
I am touched, thank you. xoxoDelete
Very heartfelt. My dad died about a year and a half ago - my parents also married over sixty years - very hard on my mom, but she is managing. Life certainly has its difficulties. k.ReplyDelete
I am so sorry about your dad and I wish you and your mother strength.Delete
What a beautiful, poignant write Ayala. I miss my parents (who were also devoted to each other) too, but aren't we fortunate to have had such wonderful parents. Happy Mother's Day to you.ReplyDelete
Yes, we are blessed. Thank you, Mary. Happy Mother's Day.Delete
What a BEAUTIFUL and heartfelt piece. This made my quite emotional. So so powerful...ReplyDelete
Thank you, Keith. I appreciate it.Delete
This is a touching tribute to your mom and a great illustration of your relationship Ayala. Your relationship must have been rich and it's no wonder it was so hard to let her go. My heart goes out to you. Hope you have a wonderful Mother's Day tomorrow!ReplyDelete
Thank you, Jen. I wish you the best. Your comment touched me.Delete
Happy Mother's Day dear ~ReplyDelete
Thank you, Grace. Happy Mother's Day.Delete
(((ayala))) Thinking of you and hoping you had a beautiful Mother's Day.ReplyDelete
Thank you my dear. I was thinking of you too.Delete
a lovely tribute I hope you had a lovely mother's day Ayala!:)ReplyDelete
Thank you, Gloria. I hope you had a good Mother's Day.Delete
Your poem really touches me. It's amazing that your parents were together for 60 years, and sadly understandable that she lost her will to live when your father died. I'm very sorry for your losses, Ayala. Thanks for sharing your poetic talents in honor of your mom.ReplyDelete
Thank you, Robyn. xoDelete
For my father it was banana pudding. I'm so sorry Ayala, when my father diet my mother changed. She is here but in some ways vacant. 60 years, my goodness. I hope your broken heart is healing. I can tell from your posts you are a wonderful mother sometimes, on mother's day, better to focus on that.ReplyDelete
So sorry about your dad. sad about your mom and yes I do realize that, thank you . Hope you got some time to enjoy yourself besides editing. :)Delete
oh Ayala, to live with this love rising from your broken heart slashed again every year at this time... you are courageous and in could only be through love imparted to you by your parents and your own inner essence that could sustain such pain... AND the love of the precious family you have built together with your beloved.ReplyDelete
bless you my friend.
Thank you, Laura. Your kind words mean so much to me.Delete
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