Sun Kissed Days

Sun Kissed Days

Tuesday, May 8, 2012

Longing For You







My heart collapsed
when I lost you.
My soul bled.
Hours and days
turn into years.
Space and time heal,
but dad the wound in my soul remains.
The wind whispers your name
in my sleep.
I search for you through my nightmares,
I search for you through sweet dreams.
When I see a glimpse of you,
I fall in your arms,
I weep,
I rejoice,
I embrace,
I hold,
I feel safe.
My pillow saturated with 
tears that I have shed.
My heart remains longing,
loving,
hoping one day I shall see you again. 



This week is four years since my dad passed away. I never got to say goodbye since he died suddenly. There is not one day that passes by that I don't think of him and miss him.  Meet us here  where we share our thoughts and our hearts http://dversepoets.com/



81 comments:

  1. This is a loving tribute ~ Thank you for sharing your heart ~

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  2. This is a lovely tribute ~ Thanks for sharing your heart ~

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  3. My heart reaches out to yours. My mother passed away a month ago. I didn't realize I would grieve so deeply. Nice to commemorate your Dad in this sensitive poem.

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    1. Thank you, Myrna. So sad about your loss...so hard..

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  4. oh i feel you in this...heavy with emotion...loss is so hard to walk through...tears def help in the cleansing...i am sorry you neer got to say goodbye...

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    1. Brian, I never got to say goodbye and that was heartbreaking. I was on my way to see my son graduate from Duke university and I never got to see my son graduate. It was awful.

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  5. Losss is rough indeed, especailly sudden, nice way of remembering too.

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  6. This is so wrenching, I lost my father 7 years ago, I relate, not one day goes by where you do not miss them :( Beautiful poem xoxo

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    1. Thank you, Poppy. I am sorry for your loss. Yes..not one day goes by ..

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  7. Beautiful poem, and I feel every word. Space and time do heal. The blessings of life.

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    1. Thank you, Lisa. Sometimes it's hard to see because the pain is so deep...but true...space and time are blessings.

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  8. This is so filled with love and emotion. It's beautiful.

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  9. So sorry you never got to say good-bye. A beautiful and sad poem.

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    1. Thank you, Chris. I wish I could have....

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  10. Oh, those sudden losses are so hard, I empathize with your grief.

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  11. I am so next to you with these precious words, with daily thoughts on my own parents passed. I like to think they read your words and kow what love is.

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    1. Thank you for your kind words. I feel like all of you have embraced me and I feel comfort from your comments.

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  12. The depth of your love is well expressed here.

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  13. So hard to accept when you don't get to say goodbye too. My mum dies suddenly 2 days before her 56th birthday. Such a shock because none of us even knew she had anything wrong with her but thankfully, I did get to say goodbye. This is heart felt. The only thing that does help is time, because it tends to distance us from the heart ache somewhat.
    A lovely tribute to your dad, so obvious you loved him very much.

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    1. Thank you, Bren. So sad about your loss but I am thankful that you got to say goodbye. I did love him and will love him forever. Blessings to you.

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  14. Beautiful Ayala, and heartbreaking. We live, we love, we lose, and I could feel the emotions behind this piece. ♥

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  15. Lovely tribute...thanks for sharing your heart ~

    Hugs ~

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    1. Thank you, Grace. :) I feel those hugs today.

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  16. This is a beautiful way to celebrate the love you feel for him--I am so sorry for your loss!

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  17. I can so relate to this - pulled right at my heart strings Ayala - I too have lost a much loved Father - and miss him more than words every day - also never got to say goodbye - still can't believe it - an impossible loss to bear - Hugs Lib

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    1. So sad for you...so hard when there is no goodbye. Hugs....

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  18. I can't tell you just how much this resonated. I lost my dad in December, my father in law in March....been to too many funerals....at the the time it feels you are alone in your grief, but we're not - we all go through it- all of us - and this poem is so human, so honest and heartfelt...it helps me....and I'm sure it helped you to write . The pain never goes- never will, but I kind of wouldn't ever want it to ....kind of the last thing left that connects us...awesome poem

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    1. Thank you, Stu. Knowing that this poem helps you touches my heart. I am so sad for your loss. I think you feel the way I do...as long as the pain is there it connects us. Hugs to you my friend.

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  19. This is so touching. I am so sorry for your loss. I believe you will see him again some day.

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  20. I don't know, but I do hope we see them again. Otherwise life seems rather a "dead end."

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  21. You lend the overwhelming element of this event to the absolute grief it overtakes with, a delicate expression, my love to you ~ Rose

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  22. Grief is a wave that you can't push away--it has to ebb into something gentler over time. My deepest sympathy for your loss, ayala--it's so hard to lose those we love so deeply.

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    1. Thank you, Joy. So hard to lose those we love so deeply and he was my first love.

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  23. Oh, you know I feel for you in this grief. Your love for your dad is a direct reflection of his love for you. I hope you take comfort in that, especially knowing how rare it is in this world to have had a father's love like yours. I know he was an amazing man. (p.s. take a kleenex and listen to Kathy Troccoli's tribute to her mother called "Goodbye For Now" on itunes... it is heart rending and hope giving... I hope it comforts you.)

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    1. Thank you, Pat. I am blessed to have such a special love and I will look it up. I appreciate it.

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  24. This is tender and touching, ayala. I'm so sorry. What precious memories you hold dear and close.

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    1. Thank you...beautiful memories.

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  25. i'm sure you will see him again.. a very moving write ayala, filled with love and longing for your dad - he must have been an awesome man

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    1. Thank you, Claudia. He was the best!

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  26. I lost my father many years ago and like you, it was sudden and I didn't get to say goodbye. I know about looking for him in my dreams. That hasn't changed; maybe it never will. But the longing has slowly been replaced by knowing that he is always around watching over me.
    Hugs.

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    1. I am sorry about your dad Belinda. So hard not to have said goodbye. So good to know he is watching over you. xo.

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  27. Very touching write, can really feel your sense of loss...I'm glad you can find him in your dreams...that's nice!

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  28. I feel your pain and loss,but I hope you can take comfort in knowing that your dad understood...and still understands..his love abides, tho he's gone. Big hugs :))

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    1. Thank you, Jackie. I appreciate your kind words.

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  29. I understand. You've written words that echo so many of my own thoughts. I lost mine, suddenly as yours, ten years ago. Only lately have I noticed a day has passed without my thoughts talking to him, probably because I'm thinking about how long I'll have my mom now. Thank you for sharing this with me.

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    1. Sorry for your loss. I hope you get a long time with your mom.

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  30. Beautiful sentiments expressed here. One never stops missing a loved parent.

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  31. Your poem evokes a universal response as I'm reading above. A beautiful elegy to the parent you lost. Hopefully all our paths lead "home" wherever that may be.

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  32. Deeply moving and very personal. A very powerful poem which expresses emotion with an authentic voice.

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  33. This is a loving and tender tribute to a man who obviously affected your life deeply.

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    1. Thank you, Charles. My dad is such a big part of me.

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  34. such a beautiful poem Ayala, may your father's memory always be for blessing.

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  35. this is so touching, Ayala. this is a difficult time of year for me as well, since the loss of my mother three years ago next week. my heart goes out to you. thank you for sharing this.

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    1. I am sorry Joanna...my thoughts are with you.

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  36. I so understand you pain Ayala. My dad died a year ago this January. He too died suddenly and I didn't get to say goodbye.

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    1. Susie, I am sorry. So sad to not get to say goodbye..so sad to lose someone we love so dearly.

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  37. The loss of a dear one is very traumatic. A fine tribute here as this can be therapeutic to ourselves. Great write ayala!

    Hank

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    1. Thank you, Hank. Writing has helped...

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  38. Oh Ayala, my heart aches for you. I know this pain all too well. Sending you lots of love, hugs, and peace. xoxo you.

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    1. Rudri, you know this pain so well and I am sorry. Thank you for all the hugs sent my way. xoxo

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