These days,
I live
again.
Don't think I have forgotten you,
my thoughts find you in the
alleyways of my mind.
Early dawn,
the house is dark and quiet
I awaken thinking of you.
Fragments of dreams,
I search through mingled trees
and dark forests.
I search for you.
These days,
I laugh
something I have forgotten to do.
I catch a glimpse of my old self,
the sadness melting from my eyes.
I remember the passion you had
for life.
I remember lessons taught by example.
Yesterday I was but a shadow of myself,
today I step into my body
and reclaim my soul.
I heal my broken stems,
grow new leaves.
I walk among the starfish,
I skip among the stars.
I fly
because you taught me that I can.
I fly
because one day we will meet again.
These days,
I live again.
Don't think I have forgotten.
Dedicated to my parents. I miss them so much but finally I feel like I can live again without sadness being my constant companion. Meet us here, http://dversepoets.com/ where we share our thoughts and our hearts.
..this is so special... and i genuinely felt it... to heal broken stems...grow new leaves...to walk among the starfish... skipping among the stars...I fly..because you taught me that I can...for one day we will meet again....all that and more really touched my heart... a piece of beauty and inspiration to read now and again.. thank you for this.
ReplyDeleteGood day!
Thank you so much. I appreciate it, Kelvin.
DeleteWonderful tribute to them from your eyes as you miss, which all who suffered such a loss can get indeed.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Pat.
Deletereally felt...I laugh
ReplyDeletesomething I have forgotten to do...too many do that and allow those memories more weight than joy, remembering the beautiful things of the person...its not that we dont look for them but we look for them in different lenses...smiles...
It's been rough road...and yes we do see them in different lenses...I am grateful to remember and smile instead of just weep. Thanks, Brian.
DeleteBeautifully expressed, Ayala. And yes you will meet them again, and I know that both of them would wish for you that you live life to the fullest. So feel good about growing your new leaves. Smile.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mary. My leaves are growing.
Deletehow beautiful Ayala! so masterfully written. I felt every word and i know i couldn't have said it better myself. Thank you so much!
ReplyDeletemuch love
Hope :)
Thank you, dearest Hope. xoxo
DeleteAww...very touching. I wrote something along these lines to post tomorrow for my own mother. Yes, we always miss them. It never quite goes away and yet, the happiness we had with them doesn't either.
ReplyDeleteYou never fail to touch. Beautiful.
Thank you, Bren. So sorry about your mom. Hugs. The pain never goes away.
Deleteoh they know you haven't forgotten but will be happy to see you put into practice what they taught you...fly on..fly on....
ReplyDeleteI am..I will. Thanks, Claudia.
DeleteThis is lovely Ayala. Today is my Dad's birthday so I'm spending the day remembering also.
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about your dad. Hugs.
DeleteWhat a lovely share Ayala ~ Our parents live in us, how can we forget those roots and wings ~ We fly because of their love ~
ReplyDeleteHappy day to you ~
Yes they do...thank you, Grace.
DeleteAyala--the love in this is palpable. What a gorgeous tribute. Thank you so much for sharing this today. You made me sniffle a bit, thinking of my own lost loved ones.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Susan. Sorry about your loved ones.
DeleteVery cute photo -- very handsome couple -- assuming this is your folks. Great memory poem.
ReplyDeleteYes..my folks..thank you.
Deletewith a lump in my throat, ayala, I respond to your
ReplyDeletemust-have-been inspired words. How wonderful that you choose to share with us thoughts from the deepest, innermost chambers of your heart--your soul.
So fly, girl, fly little bird.
Fly with the wind.
PEACE!
JOY.
Always!
Thank you, dear Steve. How wonderful that I get share my heart with such wonderful friends.Peace and Love.
DeleteHow beautiful you write. This touched my heart. I am glad that you rediscovered joy and life. Grief takes so much time. I know your parents know that you'll never forget them.
ReplyDeleteIt does drain us...thank you, Myrna.
Deleteso, so beautiful. so much love between the lines, what a great poem.
ReplyDeleteThank you kindly.
DeleteAnd this is very special...a beautiful tribute (missed you, too) :) x
ReplyDeleteThank you, Louise. xo
DeleteYour writing is wonderfully woven, myriad emotions, much enjoyed :)
ReplyDeleteThank you, Poppy. ;)
DeleteJust fantastic, filled with love, life, hope and determination. I love walking with starfish. A beautiful tribute Ayala,which left a smile.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Di. :)
DeleteWe never forget the ones we love, no matter how long gone. Heard a song today I remembered listening to with my mom when I was little. Gone since I was seven, and it brought me right back to her. Hold onto those memories, Ayala. :-)
ReplyDeleteI am so sorry Ginny. How awful to lose your mom at seven. So great you remember listening to the song with her. Thank you and hugs to you.
Delete"Yesterday I was but a shadow of myself,
ReplyDeletetoday I step into my body
and reclaim my soul.
I heal my broken stems,
grow new leaves." soooo beautiful dear Ayala... in some other plane they miss and love you too and for sure would want you to "skip among the stars"
Thank you, Laura. xo
Deletethis is beautiful, Ayala..a very soul-stirring tribute filled with strength and hope. thank you for sharing~
ReplyDeleteThank you, Yelena.
DeleteI really love this one! Quite possibly my favorite from you!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Dana. One of my favorites .
DeleteI can relate. This made me sad and happy all at once.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Charlotte.
DeleteThe holidays are never an easy time when you are missing loved ones... I am going through something simular right now. It has been 10 years since my father passed but sometimes if feels like it was just yesterday. Your parents would be proud of your words...
ReplyDeleteI am sorry about your dad. So hard Tracie...the pain is always there.
Deleteyou really honor them!
ReplyDeleteHappy Aloha from Honolulu
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Thank you, Cloudia.
DeleteAnd every time you fly, they are there, soaring with you. What a lovely tribute this is.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kelly. :)
Deletesome beautiful imagery in this, a bit I really fell for was "the sadness melting from my eyes" lovely words. Send love and peace ~ Rose
ReplyDeleteThank you, Rose. Love and Peace to you.
DeleteWonderful strength found in this piece ayala. Beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jen.
DeleteAyala, a wonderful tribute, so much love in these words. Never forgotten, and they taught you to fly. A great gift.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Sara. Indeed a great gift :)
DeleteAyala, I love this part,
ReplyDelete"I walk among the starfish,
I skip among the stars.
I fly
because you taught me that I can.
I fly
because one day we will meet again."
Quite lovely.
Pamela
Thank you, Pamela.
Delete"I fly
ReplyDeletebecause one day we will meet again."
A very beautiful poem. Loved it !!!
Thank you so much.
DeleteI love your first four lines. In fact, I think they would make an excellent poem on their own.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jasmine.
DeleteWalking among starfish and stars...beautiful! Another lovely family tribute...from one overflowing w. love. Just beautiful, A!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Jackie. :)
DeleteI love the part about flying! Great poem, filled with such love and admiration.
ReplyDeleteThank you kindly :)
DeleteA wonderful evocation. Sad, and yet at the sametime tinged with hope.Brilliant write.
ReplyDeleteThank you, James. :)
DeleteBeautiful. A lovely, bittersweet tribute.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kristen. :)
DeleteSuch a strong, hope-filled poem. I especially like:
ReplyDeleteYesterday I was but a shadow of myself,
today I step into my body
and reclaim my soul.
Thanks, Laurie.
DeleteBack to reread via FB... so touching.
DeleteHeart-warming. I like how you used the second person in writing this.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Victoria.
DeleteMemories are so precious. This is beautiful.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Beth. :)
DeleteThis is really gorgeous work!
ReplyDeleteThank you, MZ.
DeleteI feel that way about my husband. Stunning piece. It touched me.
ReplyDeleteAww thanks Gay...sorry about him. xo
DeleteIt's a hard thing, living without those we love. But there comes a time when we must choose happiness over sadness, and go on, carrying the memories with gladness.
ReplyDeleteExcellent write, Ayala!
Thank you, Charles. It is hard but true..we must choose.
Deletethis is simply beautiful, ayala: the remembrance... and the hope.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Joanna.
DeleteHow beautifully tender, Ayala...and very touching. I especially appreciate those who have/had close relationships with their parents...how fortunate you are to have such memories of them.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Gayle. I think I am blessed.
DeleteLove the love here... everywhere.. they must be really proud of you, Ayala
ReplyDeleteGreat words
Thank you, Dulce.
DeleteYes - can understand. Loss very hard. k.
ReplyDeleteTrue, Karin.
DeleteThat was really beautiful. Many thanks for sharing.
ReplyDeleteGreetings from London.
Thank you. My dad loved London :)
DeleteYour parents did an amazing job...I hope that my daughter thinks as highly of me one day!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Ameena. :) she will.
DeleteThis was so beautiful--you are so lucky to have been loved so well--and you pass it on to everyone you meet
ReplyDeleteThank you, Audrey :)
DeleteWhat a wonderful family...for all of you. I just love getting to share (vicariously) your lovely thoughts, experiences and memories. This one is especially dear to me. Thank you for sharing this Ayala.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Mary. xo
Deletei believe that they will be looking down on you and smiling to see you fly
ReplyDeleteThank you, Kamana :)
Deletehappy sunday to you as well...smiles
ReplyDeleteHello my dear friend, and I was reading your website, I just wanna say I really love it! The overall look of your website is fantastic , as well as the content! Congratulations for your amazing work ! I follow your blog (132)... Hope you'll follow me back.... I wish you Happiness and Joy… And Blessings for the New Year. I wish you the best of everything… That you so well deserve.
ReplyDeleteGreetings from Rio de Janeiro/ Brasil
Nelson
Thank you, Nelson. You are very kind. Best wishes to you and I will go look for you. :)
DeleteOh Ayala. This hit me in the heart. I love the bittersweet emotion you created with your words. As you know I understand that the sadness that you speak of and I am so filled with joy that it is not your constant companion. xoxo
ReplyDeleteThank you, dear Rudri. I know that you feel this as well. xoxo
DeleteI am so glad to see that time does heal and that you are able to remember without weeping as much. Beautiful words here.
ReplyDeleteThank you, Sheila. I appreciate it.
DeleteInspiring!
ReplyDeletePoignant and beautiful, as always, ayala.
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