I bow to the trees,
the birds are my choir.
I find refuge in silent fields,
immunity unspoken,
wounds barely healed,
redemption afforded.
I have forgiven you,
but not myself.
"Not possible" you exclaim,
the ache is throbbing,
the mind is searching,
answers are far and few.
Don't ask me if I want to live,
ask me if I choose to die.
So excited that http://dversepoets.com/ is featuring http://dannygregorysblog.com/. The photo above is his illustration. I recently found him through my friend and talented poet and artist Claudia at https://jaywalkingthemoon.wordpress.com/ . I love his work !
we choose to die...but we also choose to live...
ReplyDeleteand forgiving ourselves if often hard to do...harder than others...
happy tuesday ayala....
Yes, it is hard to do....
DeleteThanks for taking part, Ayala! Sometime forgiving oneself is the hardest. Your poem made me wonder about the background of this poem.
ReplyDeleteA lot of pain.... Not always easy to share.
DeleteWasn't Gabriella's prompt over at dVerse today wonderful? The interview she did of Danny Gregory is definitely a keeper. The last two lines of your poem make me wonder as well....I wonder who in your poem has the choice of 'to live or to die.' I think there is a backstory to this poem.
ReplyDeleteWonderful interview! Mary, I leave pieces of myself in these poems..... It's not easy ..yet getting easier.
Deletesome deep thought put into these lines
ReplyDeleteThank you Pat .
DeleteI think forgiving oneself is the hardest thing to do ~ Opening lines are my favorite Ayala ~ Good to see you ~
ReplyDeleteThank you Grace. Good to be seen.
DeleteThere is a lot of substance in this, Ayala...and underlying tone of sadness, but also of beauty. I'm really enjoying the poems written to Danny's work.
ReplyDeleteI love Danny's work ..... Thank you Victoria. I am bleeding on the page.
DeleteI LOVE this poem, especially "I bow to the trees. The birds are my choir." Mine, too. The last two lines are concerning. It reminds me of a time when I was struggling, and a dear friend said he knew it was harder for me to live, easier to die.......I am glad I chose life, because wonders awaited that I could never have dreamed.
ReplyDeleteI am grateful that you chose to live. Thank you for sharing. This blog has taught me to open up and share things I have held inside for a long time.
DeleteIt's always good to find refuge in nature. But some wounds do take so long to heal, they feel like death.
ReplyDeleteGood writing Ayala. Enjoyed.
Thank you Myrna.
DeleteWhat a poignant poem, Ayala. There is significance and substance in all of your lines. I especially loved the line "I find refuge in silent fields, immunity unspoken"
ReplyDeleteThank you Rudri.
DeleteIt can be incredibly hard to forgive yourself... others, too; but you have to live with yourself and that makes the wounds heal much slower in a lot of cases.
ReplyDeleteIt's hard to forgive ourselves.....
DeleteThe opening line really drew me in as it is very symbolic to bow to the trees for there is a sense of freedom in the movement.
ReplyDeleteThank you !
Deletei think the hardest person to forgive is ourselves - it's so vital though for being able to move on and love again...
ReplyDeleteSo glad that you introduced me to Danny's work. ...and thank you.
DeleteI chose poetry, which precludes that I choose life, & stiff-arm death; as for forgiveness, I've found it healthy to be quick to forgive myself, & sort of drag my feet in the forgiveness of others; something I am working on. Nice take on Danny's image.
ReplyDeleteA work in progress for me..... Thank you !
DeleteLove that 'the birds are my choir.' ~ Feels good the willingness to forgive...takes time though and efforts...starts from loving yourself and others as yourself....
ReplyDeleteThank you kindly.
DeleteI can feel the depth and seriousness in your words...the ending is very profound. I really enjoyed this.
ReplyDeleteIt was hard emotion to put out there.
DeleteThe choices seemed to have been already made. Not good for a good soul! Great lines ayala!
ReplyDeleteHank
Thank you Hank.
DeleteWhat a beautiful poem Ayala… I've missed reading your inspirational words.
ReplyDeletefantastic poem:))
ReplyDeleteMissing you
ReplyDeleteALOHA from Honolulu
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