Sun Kissed Days

Sun Kissed Days

Tuesday, August 23, 2011

Mom's Journey

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Limencello in my chilled white cup,
the taste of sorrow,
sweet seduction.
I sip and I remember.
He held me,
as we walked,
behind mom to her final
resting place.
Prayers said in the background,
the voices drowning,
in the cries of my despair.
In the silent night,
we could not sleep,
consumed with grief and jet lag.
We drank Limoncello,
and we looked through the windows,
of our past,
the links of our life,
big and small details.
A brother and a sister,
surrendering to the ache in our soul,
inspired by the past,
to carry on.

This week is two years since my mom passed away. I miss her every day.


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87 comments:

  1. AdrienneAugust 23, 2011 at 2:39 PM

    The tastes, the feel, the sounds. Surrendering. Linking our pasts with today and tomorrow. Just beautiufl, as always.

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  2. cj SchlottmanAugust 23, 2011 at 2:53 PM

    These words are evocative of so many emotions that rise in the reader. It is strong and very real.

    Namaste..........cj

    PS - I love Limoncello!

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  3. Brian MillerAugust 23, 2011 at 2:57 PM

    mmm...lots rekindled in little touches the tea to the memory to the reminder you are carrying on...nice piece..

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  4. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 3:24 PM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, but it is so good that you can write out your feelings.

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  5. TashtooAugust 23, 2011 at 3:36 PM

    Oh, this is touching, heart felt, wrapped in sights and smells of memory. She would be honored by your write I'm sure. Wonderful!

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  6. hedgewitchAugust 23, 2011 at 3:53 PM

    Looking through the windows of the past comes hard--it's good to have someone there when you do, especially someone who's been there too. A very soft and gentle feeling of sorrow here.

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  7. Pat HattAugust 23, 2011 at 4:04 PM

    Very touching write and a wonderful walk down memory lane!

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  8. LauraAugust 23, 2011 at 5:12 PM

    Ayala this is so tender, you have expressed your grief so clearly...even the taste of it. Your mother beautiful in the photo you've shared. May you you always be comforted by the memories of her lovely smile.

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  9. RudriAugust 23, 2011 at 5:18 PM

    Sending you lots of love and hugs my friend. It never gets easier.

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  10. LouiseAugust 23, 2011 at 5:58 PM

    A very touching piece...I echo the sentiments ~ hugs x

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  11. GlynnAugust 23, 2011 at 6:35 PM

    The missing her is the measure of what you had with her. And that's a blessing.

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  12. DaydreamertooAugust 23, 2011 at 6:39 PM

    My mum was also one of my best friends. She passed away suddenly 2 days before her 56th birthday in 1989, I still miis her as much today as I did back then.
    Treasure the memories you shared, she does.

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  13. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 6:46 PM

    its been four yrs since my mum passed, I miss her everyday...its a loss hard to explain.

    big hugs

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  14. VictoriaAugust 23, 2011 at 7:09 PM

    I could feel that sadness that still hangs over you. A touching write and that little detail of the limncello just seemed to make it more real.

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  15. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 7:38 PM

    I love the simplicity of this piece that says so much with such emotion. The anniversary of loved ones' deaths are always difficult. Bless you.

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  16. Beth WAugust 23, 2011 at 8:58 PM

    Incredibly heart felt. Your emotions guided you. This is well done.

    Beth

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  17. Maude LynnAugust 23, 2011 at 9:07 PM

    Sad and lovely piece.

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  18. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 9:13 PM

    A sweet and thoughtful memory...

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  19. Ed PilollaAugust 23, 2011 at 9:16 PM

    i'm so sorry for your loss. my dad died seven years ago. i still hold him close.

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  20. California Ink in MotionAugust 23, 2011 at 9:28 PM

    I think your oem will touch anyone who has lost a parent. This is the part of life that is the most difficult. I wrote a poem about Grief. maybe if you have the time,

    http://themslvh.wordpress.com/2011/06/18/grief-often-get-in-the-way/

    Very touching poem you wrote. *sad smile*

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  21. AnonymousAugust 23, 2011 at 10:18 PM

    Loss... so difficult may you find peace.

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  22. Helena WhiteAugust 23, 2011 at 10:59 PM

    Such a heartfelt tribute Ayala ~ we looked through the windows, of our past,

    ────── کɛη∂ɨηǵ ყσµ ─────
    ♡..(⁀‵⁀,) ♡♥ hugs & Love
    ♥♡ `⋎´ ♥..♡♥ Ƭђσµgϯђک, Ƥɾαγɛɾک αη∂ Ӈɛαɾϯ ღ)✗❤✗ღ

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  23. UnknownAugust 24, 2011 at 12:51 AM

    This is beautiful and filled with emotion and strong imagery. May this day be a time to reflect on the good memories. I can only imagine the ache you must feel. Thanks for sharing these emotions with us.

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  24. SheilaAugust 24, 2011 at 1:10 AM

    My prayers include comfort for you as you continue to heal. I think your mom is probably beaming at this poem you wrote. If she has a refrigerator in Heaven, this is already hanging there.

    Btw, have I told you how much I love your smiling pooch at the top of your blog? I think I have - maybe once or twice or five hundred times! ;)

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  25. kelvin s.m.August 24, 2011 at 3:02 AM

    ..a very heart rending piece my friend... i can feel each words... very tough write of someone missing a loved one.. your Mom's surely very happy to where she is right now and so proud of how you inspired many in the world! Smiles!(:

    Brightest blessings to you!

    ~Kelvin

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  26. UnknownAugust 24, 2011 at 5:53 AM

    your expression of mourning, re-connecting - with limencello, - the taste, the sights, I was walking slowly after you...
    Your love for her, for your brother, is strongly felt...
    May her memories live in your heart and through you enter the memories of your children...

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  27. BelindaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:39 AM

    Sending virtual hugs, Ayala. Your words are full of love and painful loss.

    The photo is beautiful...

    And I have a soft spot in my heart for Limoncello -- I drank a lot of it when I got married in Rome.

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  28. AnonymousAugust 24, 2011 at 8:56 AM

    What a wonderful sad and lovely tribute.

    Lady Nyo

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  29. TALONAugust 24, 2011 at 9:57 AM

    I'm so sorry for your loss, ayala. The pain never goes away, does it? A hole in the heart that isn't quite filled up even with all the beautiful memories. She must have been a remarkable woman. The photograph is priceless...

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  30. ClaudiaAugust 24, 2011 at 11:11 AM

    what a beautiful woman your mom was and what wonderful and warm words...limoncello..? so she was italian...?

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  31. Jannie FunsterAugust 24, 2011 at 11:44 AM

    Dear, Dear Ayala, this moved my heart and tears welled up.

    God bless you today and always, and big hugs from me.

    And your poetry is as beautiful as always, looked through the windows of our past. Still so gad we've met.

    xo

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  32. colleenAugust 24, 2011 at 11:50 AM

    It gave me a shiver. I love any poem that can give me a visceral reaction. I like the focus on the drink and the details flowing from there.

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  33. Joanne Young ElliottAugust 24, 2011 at 1:03 PM

    Memories stirred. It is hard to lose a loved one. Somehow the art we create provides some solice. Thank you for sharing.

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  34. LeslieAugust 24, 2011 at 2:28 PM

    your mom was lovely. and i know she must be proud of her daughter's lovely words, penned for her.

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  35. TimoteoAugust 24, 2011 at 4:53 PM

    She was beautiful, like you.

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  36. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:23 PM

    Thank you, Adrienne. I appreciate all the lovely things that you express.

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  37. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:24 PM

    Thank you, cj.
    I love it too, except it is the taste of sorrow for me.

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  38. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:24 PM

    Thank you, Brian.

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  39. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:25 PM

    Thank you, Caroline.

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  40. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:25 PM

    Natasha, thank you for your sweet comment.

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  41. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:26 PM

    Thank you, Joy. We both felt the ache, we both took care of her....

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  42. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:27 PM

    Thank you, Pat.

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  43. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:28 PM

    Thank you, Laura. I looked in the mirror the other day and I saw her in me....it's so hard, still.

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  44. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:29 PM

    My dear Rudri,
    it does not get easier....
    thank you for your hugs and your thoughts.

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  45. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:30 PM

    Thank you, Louise. xx.

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  46. AnonymousAugust 24, 2011 at 6:30 PM

    this is very sweet, I do know how you feel it has been but a year and a half since I lost my mom I too miss her every day....

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  47. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:30 PM

    Thank you, Glynn. Wise words.

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  48. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:32 PM

    Daydreamertoo, I am sorry for your loss. I treasure everything the good and the bad that we shared.

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  49. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:34 PM

    Thank you, David. I am so sorry about your mom. Big hugs to you.

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  50. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:35 PM

    Victoria, it does hang over me...

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  51. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:37 PM

    Thank you, Laurie.

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  52. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:37 PM

    Thank you, Beth. I appreciate it.

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  53. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:38 PM

    Thank you, Mama Zen.

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  54. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:38 PM

    Thank you, Gary.

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  55. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:39 PM

    Thank you, Ed. I am so sorry for your loss...it's so hard to go through.

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  56. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:41 PM

    California Link in Motion, I think your poem is beautiful.

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  57. KavitaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:42 PM

    I am very sorry for your loss, Ayala... and nothing in the world can replace a loving mom.. but I am sure your mom still sends you her love, from wherever she is.. and I can bet she will NEVER stop doing that..

    Hugs to you, my dear friend...

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  58. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:42 PM

    Thank you, Wolfrosebud.

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  59. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:43 PM

    Thank you, Helena.

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  60. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:44 PM

    Thank you, Lori. I do think back with gratitude...this week is just harder to go through.

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  61. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:46 PM

    Sheila, I have to tell you that your comment made me smile. A refrigerator in heaven and my mom looking at my poem. very nice. My little pouch thanks you, she is a sweet soul.

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  62. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:46 PM

    pooch :)

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  63. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:47 PM

    My friend, Kelvin, those are sweet words. Thank you!

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  64. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:48 PM

    Thank you, Debbie. Your comment is kind and thoughtful.

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  65. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:50 PM

    My dear Belinda,
    thank you, I think she was beautiful. Limoncello is delicious except that when I drink it, I find myself crying to no end....

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  66. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:50 PM

    Thank you, Jane.

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  67. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:51 PM

    Thank you, Talon. How sweet of you....it does leave a hole, a wound....a longing that never goes away.

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  68. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:52 PM

    Thank you, Claudia. My mom was from Romania.

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  69. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:53 PM

    Dear Jannie,
    You are sweet as always. So glad that you are a part of my life. xo.

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  70. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:54 PM

    Thank you, Colleen.

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  71. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:54 PM

    Thank you, Joanne.

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  72. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:56 PM

    Thank you, Leslie. I would like to think so....

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  73. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:58 PM

    Timoteo, what a lovely moving thing to say, thank you.

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  74. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 6:59 PM

    Amanda, I am sad that your lost your mom as well...the missing or longing does not go away..so sorry for your loss.

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  75. ayalaAugust 24, 2011 at 7:00 PM

    Kavita...lovely words of comfort, my friend. xx.

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  76. AnonymousAugust 24, 2011 at 10:13 PM

    A lovely and honoring poem, grieving is a long process, take good care of yourself and lean on your loved ones.

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  77. BaishaliAugust 25, 2011 at 12:54 AM

    so touching and beautiful, dear lady. you have conveyed a sky full of emotions and an ocean deep memories with a few sketchy brush strokes.

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  78. ayalaAugust 25, 2011 at 6:50 AM

    Thank you, chroma poesy ,

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  79. ayalaAugust 25, 2011 at 6:51 AM

    Dear Baishali , your comment made me smile. Thank you for your beautiful words.

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  80. FinallyAugust 25, 2011 at 12:07 PM

    I am so sorry for your loss. I lost my grandmother last week, and I see so much of our relationship in the sentiment of the poem. This is a beautiful and poignant piece.

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  81. ayalaAugust 25, 2011 at 7:33 PM

    Finally, I am so sorry for your loss. So sad to lose a loved one.

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  82. AlitaAugust 26, 2011 at 8:12 AM

    Ayala, I'm so very sad for your loss. It doesn't matter if it was 2 years ago or today, grief is grief no matter what. (hugs!)

    Alita

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  83. Kerry O'ConnorAugust 26, 2011 at 10:32 AM

    You have captured the loss with poetic grace.

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  84. ayalaAugust 26, 2011 at 4:52 PM

    Thank you, Alita. You are right the grief remains...

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  85. ayalaAugust 26, 2011 at 4:52 PM

    Thank you, Kerry.

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  86. ChristineAugust 26, 2011 at 9:25 PM

    My Mom has been gone for 17yrs on Aug 14, the ache never goes away it just gets gentler.

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  87. ayalaAugust 27, 2011 at 7:39 AM

    Christine, I m sorry for your loss...the grief gets gentler, those are wise words.

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